A Post I Have Not Been Looking Forward To

My mum died earlier today. She died from a secondary cancer from the bowel cancer that she fought off several years ago. I guess I am in shock and I have no idea what to do. People tell me that things are sent to try us but this is just a joke. Others are telling me that it's just a time of life thing. Your grandparents go, then your parent and then eventually so will you. This was meant to console me. The best that can be said is that my mum is no longer suffering. Now there will be family hell to look forward to after the funeral. I have been feeling numb for days because I knew it was coming. I guess that numbness is my best friend right now.